Are We There Yet ?

One year after I acknowledged the idea of going through Depression (at the initial diagnosis I asked my doctor if three months will suffice to become good again).
Many waves come back and bring in the memory and the emotion I went through in that year.
When I speak with friends, that I watch the wave instead of being in it, they remark ‘what great achievement’. And Yes. It is a great achievement and I have worked hard for it.
In the beginning I saw this as an in-between life. Like my life path took a detour to this dark place and when I’m done I will return to my old path and continue on as planned.
Where now I know this is simply how my path looks like currently and it will keep changing, as it always did.

Getting back on my feet

After a while down in the pit it was time to get up again and leave the wailing in self-pity behind. Getting off the floor and back on my feet needed a little pushing from a good friend and mentor of mine. The fragility inside tries to hold me back and tell me that I am not ready yet. Arguments sound plausible and my head wants to listen to them. My mentor though challenged me to listen into my body not my head.

I get to see what can be and the opportunity for change. Either living with Depression or my life put back together differently, with changes that I choose.
Not all the pieces from my old life will find a place in the new one, as this time it is mine to choose what is useful, supportive of myself.
Some parts will be discarded as they don’t serve me anymore.

I know the core issue is not ‘fixed’ yet, still this is part of the cure.