Thank You, Jamie

Yesterday was the anniversary of a very good friend passing into the next stage on his journey. A year ago Jamie Brown’s body was left behind after a short and intense conversation with cancer. Jamie did not simply accept the diagnosis of his doctors. He ventured out to understand the cancer that came into his body and to heal himself.

Now I truly understand what Jamie meant when saying, that he welcomed and thanked the cancer to offer an incredibly deep learning about himself. Just like Eckhart Tolle speaks of the disease being the gateway for the cure.

If I am courageous enough to have a good look, and I mean a really good (and uncomfortable) look at what is really going on/going wrong inside me I can come out stronger than ever, rich in wisdom about myself.
The Depression shows me what believes I built my life upon and which are not working for me anymore. In my case and also in Jamie’s it is the selfless giving of oneself for others and forgetting own needs and the nurturing of ME. I was prepared to give all to others and now I am unable to give anything. So whom am I of service that I am crippled by this condition ?!
I guess I have no choice than giving in to what is and accept the gift – here and now. The gift being that I get a good view of what needs to change.

A challenge Jamie started with me, was to sit still and to not do anything. Something I am still struggling with – to sit with myself and let the mind go inside and have a look around. The constant busy-ness creates a distraction which makes everything bearable as it puts a curtain over everything or pushes it aside with a simple ‘not now’. Well ‘now’ has just arrived.
The search for the roots of my ‘illness’ is made easier (easier to understand) as I have done some digging beforehand with the ManKind Project and the support is still there and ongoing.

Looking forward to the Gold I will discover.
Thank you, Jamie.

If you are what you do – what are you if you don’t do ?